i honestly do not have a reason for living anymore. i know i've been depressed or whatever before, but fuck. okay. lets see.
i dont have a home. by home, i dont mean house. i have one of those. i mean an environment where i can live and feel safe and happy and comfortable, even sometimes. no, i dont have a 'home'. today really took the fucking cake. my stuff gets thrown around, even things i've borrowed that arent mine. my things break. things that arent mine that i've borrowed break. screaming, fighting. imagine two sisters pretty much throwing eachother around the room. and i'm the one who gets in trouble for it.
my parents don't care. if you want an example after our little spiff my dad checks up on my sister but walks straight past my slumped over body shuddering with sobs. though i suppose thats for the best, if he had talked to me, he probably wouldve told me off. is it bad to wish you lived with people who cared?
yeah, i have friends. but i dont have a best friend. my two best friends becamse best friends with eachother a while ago. i was going to move away anyway, we wouldve split up in time so that doesn't matter. either way, my friends don't know what do with me when i'm sad anyway. when i tell how i feel to a friend of mine when i'm sad he just makes me feel worse. so fuck that. and my other close friends all have eachother, or their own little group they retire to most of the time anyway.
nothing is going my way. i'm so sick of feeling so terribly alone. i dont even have the motivation to lift up my head from the desk while i'm typing. my cheeks are swimming in a pool of my own tears here.
you can leave me on the corner where you found me i'm not for sale anymore
you can leave me on the corner where you found me i'm not for sale anymore
you can leave me on the corner where you found me i'm not for sale anymore
you can leave me on the corner where you found me i'm not for sale anymore
you can leave me on the corner where you found me i'm not for sale anymore
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